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Tuesday, August 24, 2010 / 1:23 AM
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Well.. I haven't posted any thing for awhile. Then again, I've been sick for almost two weeks. SO STUPID. I hate being sick in the summer time. Since that last post, yes, it's the same sickness. Fevers aren't supposed to exceed three days, but my fever isn't really bad now, it's pretty minor, all I have now really is just a whole ton of coughing. I hate it cause I don't want to get anyone sick, especially for the upcoming debut.. THIS WEEK. ahhh.. stress. Now I must try to relieve my stress. Ahh... blog, thank you for letting me let out my stressful stress-like stress stress stress upon you.
ONE: The dance thing. Aiisshh.. We have less than a week before the cotillion. It's this saturday.. A lot of the dances are still a mess and there are even more dances I'm not in that aren't even finished. No offence or anything.. but everything just seems really unorganized. I mean.. a debut is supposed to be really big, and really special, something that should be planned months in advance, that goes for the dancing too. The dances preferably should start being practiced months in advance as well, because there's so many to perform and to get right and to get the transitions, formations and everything. Then the preparations like the seating and tables and decor and what not. I'm not sure how long ago my friend started planning her debut, but as for the dances.... We started a month ago, and haven't even had a single practice with everyone yet. I really hope things go well. TWO: Stupid boys. I think I should just let them all go. I hate this, three choices relationship stuff. I don't want to seem cold hearted. But it would really take a load off. I just want to start over. I don't want to have this issue with these people. I just want to be unexpected, perhaps meet someone new. And maybe I already have unofficially. But I think it's better that way. Thinking about someone I don't even know. It's easier. I hae no worries. It's easy to just lay eyes on someone and think "oh, well that persons really good looking" , and never actually hang out with them that very moment. Maybe slowly get to know them. It seems like a better thing to do. But then there's my problem with Reizo, Yoshi and Hiro. Reizo for starters started talking to me last week unexpectedly. He talked like he used to back when we first met. I liked it I guess, it was fun to talk to him like that but.. low and behold, it only really lasted a day or two, not even. Then he says that we should hang out, but I have to give him a call in order to do so. Truthfully, I don't really now if I want to. He claims he still likes me, but maybe he just said it because of what I told him last week. [ in reference to the posts last week ] . Then Hiro, well I did really miss him, a lot. Then I talk to him online that one time before he left for camping. It was nice. But then, when he gets back, and I talk to him again, things felt different. I just felt like I was annoying him. I tried to talk like we used to, it worked before he went to camp, but the other day, was just different. I hated it. I feel so indecisive. One minute I miss him like crazy, now I just don't really feel like it was even worth it to have all those posts about him and have these weird feelings. Yes, I liked him a lot before. Yes, he was a great friend. Yes, I missed him. Yes, I didn't want to lose his friendship. Now? I don't really care. After talking to him a few times after he got back, maybe now I see why we stopped talking. There's just nothing to talk about anymore. I don't know what it is. But since it was such a long time when we stopped talking, they say that if you don't see someone or hear from someone for a long time, you miss them and it makes the heart more fond or something. But seriously? It worked on me, then once they get back, I feel like a complete idiot for making such a big deal about it. Aish.. the teenage brain. -breathes and catches breath- THEN THERE'S YOSHI! Best friend best friend best friend. More and more I start to see his friendship as way more important. But then, a few days ago at gezelles house. My other friend said that apparently yoshi was planning to ask me out on gezelles debut. The thing that popped into my head at that moment was "oh no..". I just want to stay friends for now. But I don't know how I'm going to react if he does go through with his plan. THREE: SCHOOL. SUMMERS OVER. WHYWHYWHYWHY. WHY MUST SCHOOL TAUNT ME. FOUR: Dad wants me to get learners. I'm too lazy, I can't do it in a week. Debut coming. Cannot learn to drive. FIVE: I'm lazy to say everything.  e x p l o d e . photo credits : ~MistaBobby via deviantart.com |
Name: Amaya (Omma)
