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Sunday, August 15, 2010 / 10:53 AM

Breathe.

So today is Gezelle's actual birthday. I won't be able to go. Why? Because I somehow got a fever in the middle of the summer. -sigh- So therefore, I get to miss a party and going out today. I guess it's not a big deal, being sick at a party isn't very good. Oh well, I get to finish my drama today anyway, and I feel lazy. Oh well.

Anyways, I think it's the end of the road for me and Reizo. That's ok I guess. I'd rather him be happy. Hopefully with that other girl, she seems like a good match for him. Whatever makes him happy, I'll be happy. I've thought about it for the past few days, and that's my decision. End of story.

Hiro has gone camping. It's his first time and I hope he has fun. I was so happy that I got to speak with him again even if it was over the computer. That's alright. I'm ok with that. I felt good. It was just like old times. We talked like we used to. I feel better. I feel happier. I wish I could keep speaking to him. I still wonder why he never really talked to me over those long months. But now we're slightly talking again. So that's good. I hope I can continue this.

So an old friend called me the other day and she asked if I wanted to go to dinner with her and a friend. But I said no for two reasons. One: I was really sick. Two: It was weird. I haven't hung out with her for so long and to be honest, I hold a grudge against her. I'm not really the type that holds grudges, but when It comes to her, there's just something that makes me angry. Over the past 2-3 years, we've always been fighting and so much stress. It's a very long story but I don't know what to do honestly. I've tried to patch things up with her many times and she has too, but every time when I think things are finally going to be ok, another fight is around the corner. ( Fighting not physical*). What I hate most, is after we fight, the next day she acts like nothing happened and expects me to act the same. I told her that and she said she doesn't hold grudges, but then I told her that not everyone can be like her. So after a while, it's just hard to talk to her normally like we did how many years ago. She used to be my best friend. But now, I don't even know if I see her as a friend. We just don't click anymore. I don't know if it's worth it to try again for how many countless times.

Now I feel like I can slightly breathe more. Now that a new school year is coming up, I think it's time to be happier and breathe. Get rid of past stress and worry, and try to embrace what's new for me and what's coming. Or maybe I'll just try to start now. Hopefully my parents will be ok, my whole Reizo, Hiro, Yoshi thing will sort out, and perhaps my friend.

A l l I h a v e t o d o i s b r e a t h e .

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