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Friday, July 30, 2010 / 9:34 PM
Here I go again.
Well, here I go again, posting again on the same day. -sigh- Oh well, blogs are for what I have to say anyway, so it's alright I guess. Would it be called blog-whoring? Since there's camwhores and forumwhores and stuff. eh.. blogwhoring it is.
Ahh.. Los Angeles tomorrow. I'm not too sure if I'm happy or could really care less about the trip. On one hand, I've never been to LA before. It seems extremely exciting, a famous place always mentioned in movies and everything. It's a place of fame and opportunity. There are so many beaches and places to go and see. But for some reason, I`m not as excited as I thought I would be. I like the idea of travelling and seeing new places, but this trip was just planned at the wrong time... On the other hand, I dont want to go to Los Angeles. So many things are happening this week/weekend that I'll be missing. I never will get to see one of my close friends. She's visiting from Vancouver and won't come back to visit for a very long time. Oh, Vanessa, I wish you'd stay longer! I have to miss out on seeing a good friend. Ah.. If only teleportation was real, then I'd teleport to see her all the time. I also have to miss out on lots of events happening. For instance, Heritage Days is happening this weekend. Lucky me. I get to miss it too. It just had to fall on the days I'd be gone on vacation. Last year, I remember going with some of my friends, and Hiro was there. I could have seen him this weekend .It's been a long time, Hiro, since I've seen you. I miss you. Sometimes, I feel like my eyes are going to tear up or something when I think about it. Gee.. Such a soft-y when it comes to him. It seems to me that I've been bottling up my self, neglecting how I feel. Eh.. Id rather make others happy then myself, but that's for another day. Yet another reason why I don't want to go to LA is because I`ll be missing lots of dance practices with Gezelle and everyone. This is bad because the choreo for the waltz is already finished and I won`t be able to learn it! I don`t want to be falling behind.. This means a lot for Gezelle, and I really hope I can make the dance perfect. Practice time for her cotillion was extremely short compared to other people. Others normally practice up to 5 months prior, whereas Gezelle`s... we`ve just started practicing a month before the actual date of the debut. $h*t. Summer seems to be going by quite slowly. But I feel like I`ve sort of been missing out. Although, it`s not a bad summer, it`s not the best summer I`ve had. Everytime I log on to facebook or whatever, I see people posting up pictures of summer 2010! And such a big hype about it. But really, things just seem all the same to me. But at least people are enjoying the summer, seems like no stress. Ahh... I`ll admit, even though I act like I don`t really care about it, I`m actually pretty jealous. I don`t exactly have a "main" group of friends. I have several groups, which I'm in, but not really if that makes sense. Everyones so close with eachother, and always do everything together, but I just kinda flow in and out of groups. It makes me really sad sometimes. I do have best friends, then again, they're all in different groups. Some of them don't exactly get a long too well with one another either. -sigh- I envy all of you with you're main groups of friends and such. Sora, Nina, and Micho, if you're reading this, I'll admit, I'm jealous of you guys. Very, very, jealous. All july has been very long. I do have lots of memories, but they just don't seem as memorable as I thought. I met a lot of great people this summer, and hopefully will start some new long term friendships. I really hate those "short term" friendships that last for maybe two months at most? Then back to complete strangers. I truly hope that this summer will be more memorable then I think it will be. I also hope that my LA trip will turn out well..  I ' l l n e v e r s t o p t h i n k i n g . . . credits to ~bluecello @ deviantart.com |
Name: Amaya (Omma)
